Sunday, July 27, 2008

my pet (:

"orang yang aku suka itu kentally kool, tetapi super kiut! KKK!*does peace sign and shows a wide smile*"
LOL

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11:18 PM

Liyana Bte Jailani <3
always in my heart

well, my dear baby cousin passed away last saturday.
it was upsetting that i couldnt attend the funeral due to the extremely interesting speech day.
i visited her on the sunday before and she was in a very critical condition in the ICU.
really heartbreaking, but may she rest in peace in heaven now. i love her!

this week passed by in a blur.
i remember going through a roller coaster of emotions.
and having our own night study at je lib.
oh, and of course, the part where s3 won the best dressed class award for racial harmony :D
nat&nad became my atoks for the day. haha. which means...raihan and amira are my neneks, no? HAHA.
speech day and learning fest was total crap. ):

if I make it through today,
will I survive tomorrow?
will I get to see you again?
will I get to tell the truth?
but what if I wont make it through today?
will you come looking for me?
will you know I'm not there?
but most importantly,
will you know I love you?

maybe this whole leaving Crescent thing isnt so bad.
there's a million things i'll miss of course,
but letting go is the hardest part i guess (yet to come)
im putting up a dedication post after o's (chey chey still a long time to come!)
and i'll try my best not to miss out on anyone. HEE.
Project Memory Album starts this weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek! :D

have a gooooooood day, yo people! (:
(i cant believe im actually looking forward to coming to sch tmr. HAISH)

xoxo
hanisah

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9:51 PM

Saturday, July 19, 2008

oh anw.
i forgot to talk about this.
about my 1 year plus baby cousin.
she was born a little different, though it wasnt obvious.
she is incapable of saying anth or even crawl, though she's nearly 2.
she's suffering from this weird disease which causes her to have weird muscle reflexions.
and now her feet is totally straight, which means she cant bend it and its going to remain like that.
she even need to have special shoes made for her.
i only got to know of her condition during early this year.
and now she's in the hospital, in an extremely critical condition.
doctors say that there's no more hope.
but im hoping against hope that its not true.
i love her and she's really adorable.
im going to visit her first thing tmr morn,
and im praying for her.
i hope you can pray for her too,
because she deserves to live this life,
to be healed, and grow up normal just like any other kid.
i cant imagine losing her because i guess its the first time im ever gonna lose someone so young, cause those whom i know and have passed on are the elder ones.
im emotional when it comes to this, because i've seen my grandmother die of lung cancer right before my eyes, she took her last breath right before my eyes, but i felt like a bum because there's nothing i could do at all. (also the reason why i hate smokers. my late grandma doesnt smoke at all btw. only her sons and family side. dont get confused, my mum's the only child and i have a very complicated family history.)
okay, so im really hoping for a miracle tmr.
God bless her beautiful soul.
Amin.

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8:08 AM

long post+random

you dont know how much i hate the cyber world.
really.
not hate, maybe dislike.
so maybe its a good thing that my tablet's screwed too.

school's not as tiring as last week.
only because i have been falling asleep on my study table
i mean like, who falls asleep just like that on the study table while studying/doing homework?!
-> me.
really drive me nuts cause i will wake up the next morn, panicky and all, to realize that i have horrible leg/tummy cramps, uncompleted hmwk/did not study and my room is in a complete mess.
im ~~awesome~~

i hate living in this hypocritical world.
im really sorry if im not being positive about every little damn thing,
but i really have my limits okay.
i really dont care if you harm me a little, cause you know i dont like blowing things up and being petty.
but you should know when enough is enough.
dont step on my toes just because i always look up and seldom look down.
its okay if you choose to tip me over slightly, but you're trying too hard to make me fall.
you dont know what its like to be me cause you'll always remain as you

i really dont know how to pull through another week of school.
its choking me in every way.

come down to me

Words fall out of my mouth
And I can’t seem to trace what I’m saying
Everybody wants your time
I’m just dreaming out loud,
I can’t have you for mine and I know it
I just wanna watch you shine.

Tripping up on my tongue,
It’s all over my face and I’m racing
Gotta get away from you
Burning all the way home,
Try to put it to bed but it chases
Every little thing I do

When the light falls on your face,
Don’t let it change you
When the stars get in your eyes,
Don’t let them blind you.

You’re beautiful
Just the way you are
And I love it all
Every line, and every scar
And I wish that I could make you see
This is where you ought to be,
Come down to me.

Spell it out in a song,
Bet you never catch on to my weakness
I’m singing every word for you.
Here I’m thinking I’m sly
Then you’re catching my eye, and just maybe
You’re thinking what I’m thinking too

When you see it on my face,
Don’t let it shake you
I know better than to try and
Take you with me.

-Saving Jane

that song's beautiful.
full of meaning and stuff, almost like a literature text.
(which reminds me of Mr M = testimonial which was due months ago. oops)

so i shall end off my post with something happier.
my parents say if i do well, i can have anth i want (that is to their budget)
so i was thinking that hmm, im fortunate enough now to be living comfortably.
(but of course now, i can ask for a laptop, since tablet's gone cuckoo. insyallah, if i can make it (: )
but the other day i just thought of smth else!
you know the uber cool clock at the faraday lab (or wtv they call it now)
hehe i thought it'll be so cool if i can have one in my room. :D

okay. im off to do *math*.
dont ask me whats with the stars. kabishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

with lots of loveadovedove,
hanisah

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6:40 AM

Monday, July 07, 2008

dedicated specially to a special friend

Dear Friend,
you dont know how much i miss you, even though i dont show it.
its quite silly cause there's nothing to miss,
but i really do miss you
at times when i see you down, or angry, or just lonely,
it makes me feel like running to you
and hugging you tight.
but somehow i just cant.
cause there's barriers everywhere.
since when was there barriers in friendship?
that, i dont know.
but i really hope that you're okay now.
at this moment and in time to come.
at times i just want to give you advice,
so that you'll be strong always.
but words can never seem to come out from my mouth.
nobody knows, how much i care for you,
how i'd give the world just for you,
how much your presence mean to me.
nobody knows, that i secretly pray for you,
secretly smile for you when you're happy.
I'm sorry if i've done anything wrong.
i know we dont really see or talk to each other often now,
but i just want you to know that you're still constantly on my mind.
Dear Friend,
i just want to tell you that i loved you,
am loving you,
and will always love you in time to come.
whenever you need a friend, just know i'll be here.
i'll be supportive of you all the way.
i'll catch you if fall, wipe your tears if you cry.
piggyback you when you're tired, hug you when you're scared.
sing for you when you're lonely, smile with you when you're happy.
clean your wound for you if you fall, even run around the world just to help you out.
fix your heart if its broken, ease your mind when you're stressed.
be your eyes if you go blind.
be your ears when you go deaf.
be your mouth if you go dumb.
be your legs and arms if you're paralyzed.
yes, i'll do anything for my dearest one.

but if only you do know.
i dont know when you'll read this.
or if you ever will.
who knows, you might even be reading this now.
in short, i just wanna tell you how much i love you and care for you.
things might be tough but im always here for you no matter what.
i dont think you realise anything
and i dont know how to tell you anything too.
but 20 years down the road,
will you still remember me as your friend?
will you remember the times we shared?
will you remember this very post that i dedicate to you?
i hope you do, because i wont ever wanna lose a special friend like you.

with all the love in the world,
your true friend

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9:06 AM

natural highs

1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake (vanilla or strawberry).
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15 The beach
16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. Looking into their eyes and knowing they Love you
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke with friends
24. Star gaze with your special one
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Playing with a new puppy or kitten.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
36. Making CUPCAKES
37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
38 Holding hands with someone you care about.
39 Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
40. Watching the _expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise.
42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

rule of the game: bold the facts that you think are true and applies to you.
tagged: everyone who comes to this blog (:

cause like me, you'll realise that alot applies to you (:
ahh we're so busy now that we fail to realise the simple things in life.

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7:32 AM

follow the road

things get pretty screwed up sometimes but its okay.
i got my new earpiece but my tablet went bonkers on me.
im hoping against hope that it doesnt crash
(though i highly doubt so due to the many viruses it has)
sighs. im gonna die if it really does.
i have a gazillion unsent hmwk in there and oh my. the manymany notes and pics.

life's getting very stale now.
i get very worn out by the littlest things.
you dont know what its like to be like me, do you?

i get very confused easily too nowadays.
things are getting a bit scary and im quite scared.
ah. the life cycle.

i dont know what im writing about as you can see.
my mind's kinda blank now.

i'll do a proper useful update soon anw.

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12:51 AM

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